Jealousy over nothing in the end cost us everything, I tried so no regrets, gotta look forward now, whatever happens, tomorrow is a new day.

Come and Support!
I will be DJing & MCing, free food, games, entertainment all day long.
Join us, together we will fight cancer.

What are we? Cannot complain to her about how I feel, just gotta be strong and carry on.

Insomnia as usual, don't know if she still loves me, I guess only time can tell.

Reading some of her letters from way back, the stuff that she said to me, some happy, some sad, some appreciative some mad. I don't know why when I read the letters now, it is so touching, every letter is filled with feelings from her the bottom of her heart. Where was I all these years? And what was I doing? Now looking back, everything was a blur, I don't remember what happened or what I did before to cause all this, what's worse is I don't even remember the reason. It's as if I was a different person, it's as if God has healed my blindness to let me see clearly again. Whatever it maybe, I must make up for what I did, I can swallow all the pain or hold all the tears, seeing her happy is all I want.

Valentine 2011

Mm Valentine 2011, another year. Woke up I feel depressed already, not in a good mood because this Valentine I won't be spending with her, and the truth is I still feel hurt recently, and I feel even more sad especially this day of the year. Went to hang out, but a friend said things that was making me upset. So I needed a drive, 2:30AM I hit friend that was awake at Riverside and left to go to Idyllwild, when I came back I felt much better because this drive really helped me to take my mind off of things. But a good friend of mine got upset because I didn't invite him to the drive. But I did comment on his facebook asking where he was, and I also told him to hit me up if he is in town. I was shocked at his reaction, but I texted him and as expected he is very angry. I don't get what did I do that was wrong, I asked my friend and myself to confirm, but truth is it killed me day, and that was 4AM what a way to start off the day. Nevertheless, I do not want to lose a good friend over a misunderstanding. And I still miss her, toast to everyone, and good night.